Saturday, November 21, 2009

45 things


 45 rules to live by:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone.. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Friday, November 20, 2009


Dead is the new alive
Despair's the new survival
A pointless point of view


Ma olen täiesti kindel, et ma ei ole normaalne, aga ma ei saa sinna ju midagi parata. Mu peas küpses otsus, et ma ei lähegi magama...nagunii pole enam mõtet minna. Tegelikult ongi viimasel ajal selle magamisega nii nagu jumal (või see tüüp keldrist) juhatab.

Mu väike obsession kogub tuure. Ma jumalan nukke. Ei, mitte mingeid tobedaid Barbiebimbosid, vaid korralikke nukke. Vintage portselannukud, eritellimusel tehtud nukud, gooti (ja muidu "tumedad") nukud, ümbertehtud nukud. Pole midagi lahedamat, kui kellegi sätitud ja näpitud nukk, mis näeb peale tuunimist sada korda lahedam välja. Hea, et mul raha ei ole. Vastasel juhul poleks mul endal enam kuskil olla :)

What is a day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed fight?


Mingil põhjusel on nii, et ma "ärkan" õhtul. Enamuse päevast veedan mingis hallis udus ning siis järsku lööb kõik klaariks. Elujõud voolab minusse ning mina tahaks kõigiga seda energiat jagada. Teised loomulikult vahivad mind imelikult, sest nemad on pikast päevast rampväsinud ja tahaksid ainult teleka ette tukkuma jääda. Nagu midagi paremat siin ilmas polekski.

Ja siis tuleb öö. See muudab mu eriliselt imelikuks. Kirjutaks, kirjutaks, kirjutaks...vahet pole kas luuletusi või mingi lollaka jutu. Joonistaks või maaliks. Olgem ausad, selle realiseerimine jääb ainult teiste rahu rikkumise hirmu taha. Vahel tabavad mind sellised ideed, et kirjutan nad heaks juhuks üles. Või siis viin ellu...kella kolmene fotosessioon kassipojaga pole mingi ime ;)



Viimasel ajal on see lugu mind nii kummitama jäänud. Kuidagi mõnus lugu.

Muide, kui ma pilti otsisin - mille ma siit leidsin - leidsin nii mõndagi huvitavat. Rohkem nukke saate imetleda siin ja siin. Vahtisin ja vahtisin neid. Homme (loe: päeval) vaatan edasi.

Kuulan Arch Enemy't ning räägin sõbrannaga tühjast-tähjast. Kell on veerand viis hommikul...hommik. Imeline hommik. Tegelikult ei tea ma enam, mis asi on hommik. Minu jaoks kõik üks ja sama. Ju ma siis olen unetu...


"When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep... and you're never really awake." 

Ma ei mäleta enam, mis tunne oli pea padjale pannes kohe uinuda ning hommikul äratuskella helina peale ärgata ning ennast puhanuna tunda. Ma isegi ei mäleta enam, mis äratuskella helin on veel vähem tean, ma mis see äratuskell on. Ärkan, millal ärkan. Seda ainult juhul, kui olen üldse magama jäänud. Pea on tavaliselt mingeid jube haigeid mõtteid täis ning mitte miski ei aita. Mitte kui miski. Unerohtu ju ka ei taha. Pealegi tunnen ma ennast enamasti päris hästi.

Läheks viskaks mõneks tunniks pikali ja vahiks seda valget lage...Ehk tuleb mõni hea idee.